I've always heard about the seven stages of grief...I have talked to many people that tell me that it will happen, people that have lost loved ones...Maybe since I am wondering if it is going to happen then I am in the disbelief stage...So I googled it so I could be self-aware in the next few months...Apparently everyone doesn't go through all seven stages, and some stages pass more quickly than others. (Also, there are several different versions that I found, but all were basically the same.) Hmm. Very interesting. Does it make it even more interesting that I am evaluating myself?
Seven Stages of Grief
1. Shock & Disbelief
2. Denial
3. Anger
4. Bargaining
5. Guilt
6. Depression
7. Acceptance & Hope
I sat here a reflected over this list for a few minutes. I think that I grieved a lot while in Little Rock. I begged and pleaded with God and got mad at medical staff and wished things were different and played the "what if" game a million times. I am sure the seven stages can be cyclical. I think that the next few days will be hard, but there are definitely more difficult days to come. I talked to my mom at least twice a day. I went shopping with her. She was my enabler (in a good way). It drives me crazy that she won't know my kids, or see Chris become a doctor, or grow old with my dad, or be able to go to the beach with us, or tell me when I am wrong, or what I should do...I can't really think of a good ending for this post so I am just going to stop typing now.
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I think this is a good post, and I think it's good that you're self-aware and that you're interested in what's going on.
This is going to be random (when am I not?), but I keep thinking about it (especially since it's been a lot cooler latetly...) and I just happened to think about it again. Would you want to go to the Zoo with me and QD one day during the week when it gets warmer? I keep wanting to take Quinn to the zoo before Baby Aiden gets here, and our weekends end up not being a good time to go...
I love you!!
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