What am I to you?

I guess it depends on who you ask, but since it's my blog and I am asking myself, I am going to answer. (This is a sign of mental instability, huh? Oh dear.)

I am a God-fearing lady that recognizes (though never enough) that I am a terrible person that has been saved only by the grace of God. I realize that nothing I do will make me good enough for God, but thankfully all I have to do is accept Him and believe! How wonderful! Sort of on the same topic, I don't think that God punishes His people. Jesus paid the price for my sin, and that is that. He suffered so that I wouldn't have to. Not saying that He doesn't allow bad things to happen, because He does. I am constantly working on my eternal perspective. Buddy (the pastor at Hunter Street) says that the most important thing about you is your concept of God. Think about that for a while...

If you have ever talked to me longer than five minutes, then you know that I am absolutely smitten over my husband. Sure, I hassle him on a daily basis, but he really is my most favorite person ever. He is so talented and driven and I am beyond blessed to be able to share a life with him! I am so proud of how he has made goals and worked to achieve his (and our) goals. He is proof that if you work hard, you can be successful. We have been together almost nine years (wow) and married for almost three! We balance each other. Are we always happy? Negative. But we realize that unrealistic expectations and basing actions upon feelings will let us down. Every time. I tell Chris the reason marriage is a lifetime commitment is because it takes that long to get it right.

Of course I say I am a dog-lover, but I really only love my dog. Ha. Just kidding. Sort of. I tell Chris all the time that Brooks is the best "thing" he ever bought me. Brooks is just so hilarious and fun and sweet. We got him a few weeks after we got married, and Chris and I agree that theshubertfam wouldn't be the same without our sweet little pup. I can say with a ninety-nine percent level of confidence that we will never get rid of all the dog hair. He is totally worth the extra vacuuming and dusting. If Brooks could speak English, he would say that I am his favorite person ever and I should never ever leave him in the crate again.

If you ask my friends who I am, I am sure the answer would be a mixture of loud/funny/flaky/ridiculous/way too domesticated friend that NEVER calls them, so they must always call me. Hmm, I need to be a better friend. For sure. But I do pray for my friends almost every time they cross my mind. I hope that helps me be less flaky? Most of the time I am very forward with my thoughts. I feel like I am an approachable person. I love to laugh. I am working on being a better listener.
Of course, you know I lost my mom to cancer. The grief over her physical death has been a process. Sometimes I feel like I am the only person that misses her. I know that's not true, but it is something I have been dealing with lately. I rejoice in the fact that my pain is temporary. I really don't want to sound like a broken record in my posts, but I miss her terribly and I hope you don't mind reading my thoughts as I learn to cope...

I am sure some people would call me lazy...in fact, I am pretty sure people say that. And it's true, depending on your standpoint. I cook three meals a day, clean, and do a lot of other random things (gardening, working on my fitness, playing with Brooks, online shopping...) that take up the day. I do think that it gets on people's nerves that I don't have a job yet. I have applied for jobs, but I am reluctant to take a job that I don't really dig because I am afraid I won't ever advance my career and education (yeah, yeah, Chris won that argument, ha). I am also loving this break! It seems like I was in school forever! I have also used my free time to work on my marriage and myself. I have spent some time reflecting, and I will probably share more things I have found, besides this post. I feel like this break is a once-in-a-lifetime deal, because third year of medical school is crazy-busy and fourth year we will be traveling all over for interviews, and then intern year we will be moving, then kids, and, well, you get the idea. So I don't think I am lazy, but it's okay if you think I am.


What would Dr. Hubby say about me? He says that I am a better writer than a talker. He would probably also say that I should go to grad school and quit wasting my mind staying at home and become his sugar momma again, even though I know he secretly loves me staying at home. He would probably also say that I am so random and I have a difficult time concentrating. He loves my cooking. I don't really know what else, I mean, he says a lot. Maybe we will be fortunate enough for him to leave a comment and let us know what he has to say...

Other random, useless information about me...I like shoes, and painting my toenails, and changing m hair color (see above pictures), and eating good food, lemon drop martinis, fountain cokes, and all things music. I am very much in touch with my inner thirteen year old. I love Twilight, and nineties music, and ice cream.

Okay, so I didn't type all of this to bore you, but I feel like my blog is taking a new direction, and I felt like I needed to get all of this on here so I can improve the quality (and frequency) of my posts! So tell me, who do you think I am?