but-can-you-go-back-once-you-know?

I wanna ask you -
Do you ever sit and wonder,
It's so strange
That we could be together for
So long, and never know, never care
What goes on in the other one's head?
Things I've felt but I've never said
You said things that I never said
So I'll say something that I should have said long ago:

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

~~~

On our way to Little Rock, Chris and I had an interesting conversation. This is just an overview.

Chris asked me how my mind works. Weird, yes, and even harder to explain. I thought a moment. The best explanation I could come up with is this: My mind is like a big room, with lots of thoughts spinning around. All of my thoughts are in that room, spinning around, and I am focused on some thoughts more than others. That is why sometimes I forget things, but I still remember more than you (Chris) because I can have many thoughts at once.

Chris said that his mind really only focuses on one thought at one time. Like his mind has different compartments for each thought. He also said that when I complain about something, he wants to fix it.

So tell me, how does your mind work?

the resolution(s)

Resolutions aren't always a bad thing. Last year my only resolution was to be more organized. NOT to be the most organized person EVER, just to improve my organization skills (or lack thereof). And it worked. Our closets are orderly, as are most of the kitchen cabinets. I have given up on the pantry. Every couple of weeks Chris comes behind me and straightens it up for me. I was better about keeping my school stuff in order. And our garage, well, it's not so great. But my point is I feel like I bettered myself. And that feels good.

Some resolutions for 2009:

Take the GRE. This is gonna be sooner than later because the job market is non-existent so I might as well study.

Make an appointment for the eye doctor. Apparently my husband knows what he is talking about. My right eye is getting worse. Oh, and I need to go to the dentist, too.

Be healthier. Brooks and I are going to start jogging around the neighborhood again. And I am going to start planning our weekly menus again. We always eat better when I do that.

Spend more time with Chris. It seems that this is a constant problem in our relationship. Since we won't be commuting together, we might get to see each other about four hours a week or something like that. Scariness. I guess med school just helps couples get ready for residency...

Find a job. There is an opening at a place that I REALLY REALLY want to work, but I am not sure if I meet all of the qualifications. I am going to apply anyway. If that doesn't work out, I am going to get a part-time job while I study for the GRE. Because I am really bored.

Be less flaky. Yes, I have got to be one of the biggest flakes ever. I am not sure how to be less flaky, but I am sure that Chris will be more than glad to hold me accountable to this resolution. (Isn't it hilarious that a flaky person is making resolutions?)

Have an eternal perspective. This is my most important resolution. A few weeks ago at church, Buddy told us we need to have an eternal perspective, because that is God's perspective. This really stuck with me. So often I get caught up in worldliness and petty little every day things, and I forget. I am so thankful that God doesn't forget about me.

"Better is possible. It does not take genius. It takes diligence. It takes moral clarity. It takes ingenuity. And above all, it takes a willingness to try." ~Atul Gawande

reflections of the year...

Chris figured out this whole med school thing...top fifteen percent....

we tried our hand (and paw) at duck hunting...

went to Nashville, always fun times...

learned what multiple myeloma is...

and how a family deals with it...

stayed with my parents for about twelve weeks straight, only coming home on the weekends...

Chris got involved in some promising research and got two publications...

went to the beach...

Brooks learned how to escape the crate...

became obsessed with Twilight...

quit going to the gym in September...

most all of our married friends had babies or are having babies next year...

internship at Partlow...

Chris turned twenty-four...

almost got my tail kicked by a research paper, but made an A in the end...

graduated...

turned twenty-three...

became a housewife...

made some silly resolutions for 2009.